Big Changes and Big Robots
7/27/22 11:44 PM
So I feel the end of the month is going better than the start.
For starters I just got my new laptop. The ASUS Zephyrus M16! I am so excited about this purchase it makes me stupid. I have literally never bought myself anything this nice before. I have been putting it through some tests and its been blowing my mind. If you told me a few years ago that I would have a nice gaming laptop I would think you were crazy. I would never have let myself get this.
In fact that is a whole other thing about today. I drove to pick this up from another town. Its not really a far drive but it wasnt too long ago that I couldn't drive at all. I was too wrapped up in my phobia of driving back then. I've made this exact drive before, but never alone and I always needed to calm down afterwards. Now today I went by myself to pick up my new laptop and I went home completely fine. I didn't even think of the drive again until now. Its crazy how things change. For years I never thought this was possible but now I feel alive.
In other news I am now diving into Gundam. Its slow going because I'm starting with the universal century and its slow going through the old 70s movie rendition of the series. Don't get me wrong I actually really enjoy whats going on. Ususally I can't vibe with very old anime like that but this is very interesting so far. I absolutely adore Char. My biggest thing is that by the time I can watch them I am gettinf really tired. I will get through it, but it might take a little while... and a few naps
I think the lesson of this month is that I NEED change. I had some really nice changes from computers, to series I'm jumping into, to just generally what I can handle. I think I will continue to change. The more I peel away at who I used to be the more I find that I like what is underneath.