7/3/22 - 3:30 AM

Thanks to a series of( unfortunate to some but fortunate to me) circumstances I am now smack dab in the middle of a four day weekend. This comes off the tail end of a 13 day stretch of work. It is very much appreciated. I was not meant to get such a break but here we are. It has been a lot of work the past while. Not a ton of days off. I consider myself fortunate for the job I have, but it can be difficult going through such long stretches of work with little time off. Nothing I can't handle so don't worry.

I'm hopeful though. I won't lie. The longer stretches of work has made this first half of the year an exceedingly lonely feeling time. Many days spent only seeing my wife for 30 minutes a day. Having to miss out on some fun friend time. It led to me constantly sleeping 10 hours a day. Luckily for me I've had my hours adjusted recently to allow me more time to see my wife. That's helped a lot, but I am still shaking off the residual loneliness I am feeling. I don't know why I am feeling this. I have family and friends. It's just a sticky feeling.

In brighter news, in celebration of having some actual time off we went to a bigger city and had probably the most fun I had all year. I spent... way too much money, but man what point is there to working a lot and not spending the money? The highlights were getting a Final Fantasy 7 Barret figure and a couple of pairs of the recent Sailor Moon collab Vans! I adore Sailor Moon and I am a slut for Vans. I had to take advantage of this. Also the boxes they come in are so fucking cool??? I am never going to get rid of them. My shoes will fall apart before I let go of them.

I still have a few more days before I go back to work. I don't know what I am going to do but I am going to try to enjoy myself. It has been difficult up until now... Especially with recent politcal situations. I have some personal glimmers of hope so I am going to focus on those. I hope you focus on your hope to in all this.

It's getting late. Sorry if this is a bit oddly written. I am very tired right now. Good night friend!